12-3-2023   ||   1:08 PM

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry to every person I was insincere with

I’m sorry because when I felt unsafe to be vulnerable

I preferred to be falsely “strong”

I preferred to run away and protect my ego.

Why is it that we seek love from those who make us feel unsafe…

Unsafe to share our deepest fears

The fear of being undervalued again

The fear of being mistreated again

Why is it that those who’d call us insecure when being vulnerable

Are the people we’ve given the opportunity to care for us

The opportunity to reject us

Why did we think those were the people God meant to “love” us in the first place?

What does love look like?

It looks like a space where we don’t have to be afraid

“There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out fear… fear has to do with punishment.”